Just when I think I have HIS "routine" down . . . Boom!!

Just when I think I have HIS "routine" down . . . boom!!! My husband changes again. The loud (all the way up booming) music playing and TV stopped over the last week. YES, it was so wonderful to not endure that blasting music anymore. But then . . . a few new behaviors suddenly appeared. First, the whispering started. So now I have to ask him to repeat everything about 10 times until he stops whispering. Next, It has been over 100 degrees the last week or so, but, we CAN'T turn the air conditioner on, that is until night when it's cool. . . oh and then he opens all the windows. WHAT the heck???? We can't buy any fruits, vegetables or anything healthy when we go to the grocery store (if I put anything in the basket he takes it out). He only wants chips and cookies and junk. He suddenly is modest (after all, we have only been together for 40 years) won't change in front of me anymore. Of course I can't do anything that makes any noise during the day when he is watching his same TV shows over and over like dishes or vacuum. And, I can't turn on any lights at night (even though it is pitch dark) in the kitchen if I need something because all the lights have to be completely off. And who knew you didn't have to shower if you go swimming every day. Also, I never knew he was a Navy Seal . . . . yes, he tells everyone he was a Navy Seal. He did work for the FAA and he was on the under water rescue team for the Sheriffs department 35 years ago, but, never a Navy Seal. In fact he has never been in any military of any kind. I try not to take him out in public too much because I never know what he will say or do. I realize this post sounds so negative but I am truly exhausted and at a loss. Of course all this new behavior on top of what he was already doing. Everything has to ALWAYS be his way and the me me mine attitude is always there. In fact he has now stated that I have to get RID of my dog because "he doesn't want it" (the dog we have had for over 10 years) Sadie.

I am absolutely dreading his next Neurologist apt in July because he is convinced the doctors have made a mistake and are going to give him his license back. And, if they don't he says he is not going back anymore. Besides, I don't even know where he has hidden his set of car keys after I sold his truck and motorcycle. At our last appointment with our attorney to finalize our living trust, he said to the attorney right before we were leaving after making a fist "do you want me to break this desk"? Our son then whisked him out of the office. I HATE FTD! I know it doesn't help to complain . . . OH and how I wish I had my old life and my amazing husband back, but that is not going to happen. So I will keep on dong the best I can. Thanks for letting me vent and for all the prayers. Hugs because together we are better . . . .

Rhonda